I am not overweight because I've had three kids or any other excuse I may come up with. I am overweight because of my own choices, desire for food, and my avoidance of exercise.
I've known for many years {probably 10+ years}, that I am an emotional eater. I eat when I'm stressed, sad, angry, tired, happy, or celebrating. So, yea, I pretty much like to eat all the time. It has been the thing I turn to to fill me and comfort me.
I don't want to be this size. I want to be healthy and be able to run with my kids. I want to be able to enjoy the summer without feeling all hot and sweaty because my bulging body keeps sticking together. {sorry if that is gross, but it is true!}.
And this isn't me beating up on myself because I have low self esteem. In fact, besides my addiction to food, I am secure in who God has created me to be. But the food thing is a big issue for me.
So, this is where I am at right now. I crave food more than I crave God. *OUCH!!* That really hurts to admit that. I actually cried when I first read that. That is not the life I want. I want to crave God with every single part of me and know that He is enough, all I'll ever need! I plan to share as much of this journey with you as possible. {remember I do have three kiddos so they take a lot of my time (: } I'll be posting more about where I am now, maybe a picture and even the dreaded number on the scale! Yikes!
This is a heart changing journey, I'm sure. I know it will not be easy, but I do not want this issue to hinder my walk with my Savior.
forever His,
marcey ♥
