I am so thankful for how hard Alan works to provide for us and allow me to be home with our boys. This man I love makes sure to take time for his family and genuinely show us his love. I don't want him to feel this pressure that is coming from a job he really doesn't enjoy. It is hard as his wife to sit by and not be able to defend him. Not that he needs me to defend him, it's more like you desperately want to fight for someone you love. But I know the most powerful thing I can do for him is pray.
In all this, I am not worried about our future or if Alan will have to quite because he simply cannot give more time in the evenings. I know God is SO much bigger than this and He has a plan. I rest in that completely. God has been faithful time and time again to show us that He is in control and He will provide for us. If you have been close to us these past 3 years or so, you know this is not the first time Alan's job has been on rocky ground. I am thankful for that history to remind me that no matter what God is there and I CAN and will trust Him.
*Sigh* Glad to get that of my chest. As I write this I am reminded again that it doesn't matter if Mr. Complainer knows anything about our situation because someone must bigger and greater does and He is the one I want to rely on for my needs.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.