This little guy never ceases to warm my heart with his love.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
37 1/2 weeks
This is for my wonderful Grandma who lives in Alaska. Here is a picture of my growing belly (taken 9/26/11)! Still hard to believe that I have only gained a total of 4 lbs this pregnancy.
We are so ready to meet Miss Lillyann!
Friday, July 22, 2011
Update
I have been in hiding for over a month now. It's called the packing, moving, adjusting, hiding place. Honestly, I just could not bring myself to write about anything. Why is it when there is so much going on it seems as though I have nothing to say?
Oh boy, where to start. Well, we still have yet to close on the house we want to buy. Just typing that brings frustration. Today is the 3rd closing date we have set but, yet again, we will need to extend it. Problem is I have not heard from our loan officer or realtor about a possible date to change it to. Worried? Slightly. Over it? Getting there. (:
Last year for our anniversary, Alan and I took a trip to South Dakota for 5 days and we loved our time together. So, this year we wanted to do something similar and had decided Tennessee would be close enough in driving distance and some where neither of us had visited. {Nashville here we come!} Our anniversary is tomorrow-still don't know when we are closing on our house-we planned to leave tomorrow for a week-this pregnant lady is not so happy with so much unknown.
Here's my predicament.
The house needs a crack repaired to stop the small leak in the basement, new carpet, and new paint. We need to repair the crack, wait for rain to be sure the seal worked, then lay carpet in the basement. While waiting on the rain, we can paint, lay carpet upstairs, and begin to move in. And we are so ready to be in our own place again!
Our original plan, when we were supposed to close on our original date, was to get all this done and move in before we went on vacation. Then with the 2nd change the plan was get the painting done so the guy could lay the carpet upstairs and we could move everything in before we went on vacation. And with the 3rd change panic set it. That date is today, the day before we wanted to leave. But after some talks with Alan and my wonderful mother-in-law {she is seriously an angle!}, our plan would be to paint the next couple days after closing so the guy could lay carpet while we were gone and when we got back we could move everything in upstairs before Alan had to return to work. Our vacation would be shorter, but that is okay. {I think I am going to have a hard time being away from my boys anyway} That plan worked for me. I liked the idea of moving in after we got back. I was starting to get excited once again.
Well, as we found out yesterday, that plan would change...for a fourth time. So, now our plan is so try to leave tomorrow {hooray! I'm excited!} and come back Tuesday/Wednesday. Hopefully our loan will be ready to close by then!
Maybe our experience is a typical to buying a home...I don't know. I just know that we have learned what questions to ask, not to expect any closing date to really be correct until there is a time set, have patience, and take our time shopping around for a loan because you will be dealing with that person/people/company for a while.
Enough about the loan and house.
The change of pace here in Fulton has been wonderful! {most of the time} I do miss my friends and Super Target. (: Alan's job is so much less stress it is almost boring for him. Don't worry, he is staying busy with the house craziness, the boys, and I. Noah and Taylor LOVE being able to see Grammy and Poppy {and of course, Uncle Austin} every day. I am so grateful that they have opened their home to us while we are in between homes ourselves.
Noah just finished swimming lessons and I could not be more proud of him! He went from being terrified of get his face wet, to swimming 6 feet, or so, on his own! I really enjoyed spending that time with him each day and being in the pool during 90/100 degree weather wasn't bad either. Mr. Taylor is in no way scared of the water. He will jump in on his own if you are not looking! We have been working with him in the water too. {My in-laws have a pool and my pregnant self has loved spending time in it!}
Baby girl is doing great! I found a doctor I really like and everything seems to be going well. Starting to feel all the wonderful things that happen in the third trimester, but that just means I am so closer to meeting my little girl.
Before this reaches a length that no one will want to read, I'll stop. (:
Will post pictures soon!
Oh boy, where to start. Well, we still have yet to close on the house we want to buy. Just typing that brings frustration. Today is the 3rd closing date we have set but, yet again, we will need to extend it. Problem is I have not heard from our loan officer or realtor about a possible date to change it to. Worried? Slightly. Over it? Getting there. (:
Last year for our anniversary, Alan and I took a trip to South Dakota for 5 days and we loved our time together. So, this year we wanted to do something similar and had decided Tennessee would be close enough in driving distance and some where neither of us had visited. {Nashville here we come!} Our anniversary is tomorrow-still don't know when we are closing on our house-we planned to leave tomorrow for a week-this pregnant lady is not so happy with so much unknown.
Here's my predicament.
The house needs a crack repaired to stop the small leak in the basement, new carpet, and new paint. We need to repair the crack, wait for rain to be sure the seal worked, then lay carpet in the basement. While waiting on the rain, we can paint, lay carpet upstairs, and begin to move in. And we are so ready to be in our own place again!
Our original plan, when we were supposed to close on our original date, was to get all this done and move in before we went on vacation. Then with the 2nd change the plan was get the painting done so the guy could lay the carpet upstairs and we could move everything in before we went on vacation. And with the 3rd change panic set it. That date is today, the day before we wanted to leave. But after some talks with Alan and my wonderful mother-in-law {she is seriously an angle!}, our plan would be to paint the next couple days after closing so the guy could lay carpet while we were gone and when we got back we could move everything in upstairs before Alan had to return to work. Our vacation would be shorter, but that is okay. {I think I am going to have a hard time being away from my boys anyway} That plan worked for me. I liked the idea of moving in after we got back. I was starting to get excited once again.
Well, as we found out yesterday, that plan would change...for a fourth time. So, now our plan is so try to leave tomorrow {hooray! I'm excited!} and come back Tuesday/Wednesday. Hopefully our loan will be ready to close by then!
Maybe our experience is a typical to buying a home...I don't know. I just know that we have learned what questions to ask, not to expect any closing date to really be correct until there is a time set, have patience, and take our time shopping around for a loan because you will be dealing with that person/people/company for a while.
Enough about the loan and house.
The change of pace here in Fulton has been wonderful! {most of the time} I do miss my friends and Super Target. (: Alan's job is so much less stress it is almost boring for him. Don't worry, he is staying busy with the house craziness, the boys, and I. Noah and Taylor LOVE being able to see Grammy and Poppy {and of course, Uncle Austin} every day. I am so grateful that they have opened their home to us while we are in between homes ourselves.
Noah just finished swimming lessons and I could not be more proud of him! He went from being terrified of get his face wet, to swimming 6 feet, or so, on his own! I really enjoyed spending that time with him each day and being in the pool during 90/100 degree weather wasn't bad either. Mr. Taylor is in no way scared of the water. He will jump in on his own if you are not looking! We have been working with him in the water too. {My in-laws have a pool and my pregnant self has loved spending time in it!}
Baby girl is doing great! I found a doctor I really like and everything seems to be going well. Starting to feel all the wonderful things that happen in the third trimester, but that just means I am so closer to meeting my little girl.
Before this reaches a length that no one will want to read, I'll stop. (:
Will post pictures soon!
Friday, June 17, 2011
cherish each moment.
Waking up to find the boys have made their own breakfast of strawberries and string cheese.
Noah looking at me with a smile and saying, "I can't believe we're having another baby!"
Spending the day in our backyard with a beautiful friend and her two boys.
Holding my two year old while he falls asleep in my arms.
Watching Miss Lillyann Grace move and kick.
Each time I breath, Noah thinks his baby sister, Lilly, is moving.
The way he looks at me like I'm the only one in the world while taking my hand in his. {I melt}
Quiet time with my God, His word, and my fav cup of coffee, courtesy of my Keurig {from the one mentioned above}. And during these moments I find the strength and peace I need to keep moving forward, following His will {even thought it can be painful}.
My neighbor brought over 4 packs of diapers, baby lotion, baby soap, and one of the cutest newborn outfits I've ever seen! I will certainly miss her, her thoughtfulness, and kind words.
Quiet nights sitting outside watching all 3 of my boys catch lightning bugs.
The feeling of accomplishment when I see the beautiful flowers growing in the flower beds.
Finding out our second offer on our house was accepted. Since before we were married, Alan and I talked about owning our own home. I cannot believe we are headed in that direction and will be able to bring our baby girl home to a house we own.
Building relationships with the most unlikely people. I'm talking about the people who vowed from the moment they met you that they would not like you or give you the time of day yet they become some of the most fun people you have ever been around!! I will sure miss late night movies and snow cones. (:
Peace that comes from God's creations. I love being outside!
Watching someone grow into who God is creating them to be. As a youth pastor's wife I had a front-row seat to this. I will miss being apart of their lives on a frequent basis. They have taught me more than they will ever know and I love each one of them greatly!
My two boys sharing a blanket, laying on the floor, while watching a movie. So sweet!
Random hugs, kisses, and I love yous from my four year old. He has the most tender heart!
Just a few thoughts/things I want to be sure to remember even when life is hectic and crazy. Stopping to dwell on the blessings in life is so uplifting.
Noah looking at me with a smile and saying, "I can't believe we're having another baby!"
Spending the day in our backyard with a beautiful friend and her two boys.
Holding my two year old while he falls asleep in my arms.
Watching Miss Lillyann Grace move and kick.
Each time I breath, Noah thinks his baby sister, Lilly, is moving.
The way he looks at me like I'm the only one in the world while taking my hand in his. {I melt}
My neighbor brought over 4 packs of diapers, baby lotion, baby soap, and one of the cutest newborn outfits I've ever seen! I will certainly miss her, her thoughtfulness, and kind words.
Quiet nights sitting outside watching all 3 of my boys catch lightning bugs.
The feeling of accomplishment when I see the beautiful flowers growing in the flower beds.
Finding out our second offer on our house was accepted. Since before we were married, Alan and I talked about owning our own home. I cannot believe we are headed in that direction and will be able to bring our baby girl home to a house we own.
Building relationships with the most unlikely people. I'm talking about the people who vowed from the moment they met you that they would not like you or give you the time of day yet they become some of the most fun people you have ever been around!! I will sure miss late night movies and snow cones. (:
Peace that comes from God's creations. I love being outside!
Watching someone grow into who God is creating them to be. As a youth pastor's wife I had a front-row seat to this. I will miss being apart of their lives on a frequent basis. They have taught me more than they will ever know and I love each one of them greatly!
My two boys sharing a blanket, laying on the floor, while watching a movie. So sweet!
Random hugs, kisses, and I love yous from my four year old. He has the most tender heart!
Just a few thoughts/things I want to be sure to remember even when life is hectic and crazy. Stopping to dwell on the blessings in life is so uplifting.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
philippians 4:6-8.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Philippians 4:6-8
Such powerful words. These are probably my favorite verses in the Bible. I memorized this back in 2nd grade for school and they have brought me such comfort throughout my life.
These last few weeks, I have needed to remind myself daily to relax, calm my anxiety, and pray. We have a lot of changes coming our way! The short of it is this: moving to Fulton, MO and buying a house. But with that comes: saying good-bye to people we dearly love in the KC area {one of my best friends JUST moved back to KC from Texas}, leaving teens who we care about with our whole hearts, moving out of a house I have become quite fond of and am obsessed with the backyard {really, it's amazing}, making the biggest purchase of our lives!, preparing for our 3rd child {a girl!!!}, changing doctors again, Alan changing jobs, packing, then storing our stuff, then moving and unpacking. I think that is it...? SEE! This is what goes through my mind and then my anxiety starts to build but the the Holy Spirit reminds me of these verses. Do not be anxious about anything, but in EVERY situation, pray and petition God and He alone will send peace that is beyond what I can even begin to understand. That stuff is not worth focusing on. Think about things that are true, right, pure, praiseworthy!
Oddly enough I feel that peace right now. Isn't God so good!?
So, you may be wondering why all this. Why are we moving? When we accepted the call into youth ministry at Southwood, Alan had a steady schedule at a full-time job which allowed him to be home by 4:30pm every day, only working 4 days a week, and rarely a Saturday. That allowed for ample family time as well as time to invest in others, i.e. teens. Since last March, his j.o.b. has required more and more of him causing enough stress completely on it's own, but then you add ministry and schooling on top of that and you have one very over-worked man before even adding family to the mix. Alan and I both saw that the demands outside our home were becoming too much. We both began to pray and petition God for direction. Something had to change but we were not exactly sure what or how. Alan applied for other j.o.b.s that would come with a more constant schedule and still allow him to be in 'paid' ministry, no such luck. Okay, more prayer. We explored other options and received a closed door, followed by a closed door, followed by a close door...you get the picture. Then the thought came to moving back to the town we both grew up in and where all of our family lives. We knew that we needed time to restore our relationship and build our family back up and in Fulton we will have support from both families and of course, babysitting! Plus, Fulton is a much smaller, slower paced town. So we continued to pray and we looked at our options there...
And out of no where, bam, an easy transfer to the office supply store which Alan currently works for was available in a near by city. He knows the manager and she practically begged him to come. She was also able to guarantee him a set schedule! And this store would be much slower paced than his current one. Alright, but what about pay? Columbia obviously has a different pay scale than the store in Overland Park. And once again, he received more than enough to cover our monthly expenses. So, okay, now what about some where to live? We knew we would have family kind enough to allow us to stay some where for a short amount of time, but that was not a permanent option for us. A week and a half ago, we took a trip to Fulton expecting to look into renting something only to find that what we would need for our growing family would be way out of what our budget could afford. Sad. What about buying? We looked into it knowing the max amount we could pay for a mortgage payment and that amount gave us just enough house to be more than comfortable. Alright, this is looking good. Spoke to a realtor who was able to show us house after house all weekend on such short notice and we found the one!! I still get overwhelmed at how perfect it is for us at this time in our lives. God had us in mind. Well, we are new to the whole buying a house thing so we had both of our Dads {who both have a construction background and built both houses the currently live in} look at it and it passed their inspections. Made a low offer which was countered by a much higher one, and then made our second offer expecting to have to go up more in order for the seller to accept. To our complete shock, our realtor called us on Saturday and told us the seller accepted!!! Our realtor said she about fell out of her chair when she got the news. She thought the list price was more than a fair purchase price for this house compared to similar ones sold in the last year. God is SO good!! Tomorrow is the inspection and if all goes well with that and the appraisal we close on July 13th.
During the time when we were contemplating moving to Fulton, I kept asking God, 'If this is not your will for us, please, close doors. We want to follow your will!' But time and time again, the doors kept opening and we kept moving through them. I have no doubt that we are going where God is taking us and although it is so very hard at time, I know the reward is great. God has a plan and I am willing to follow!
I selfishly ask that if our family comes to mind that you would lift us up in prayer during all this change. We want His will to be done!
These last few weeks, I have needed to remind myself daily to relax, calm my anxiety, and pray. We have a lot of changes coming our way! The short of it is this: moving to Fulton, MO and buying a house. But with that comes: saying good-bye to people we dearly love in the KC area {one of my best friends JUST moved back to KC from Texas}, leaving teens who we care about with our whole hearts, moving out of a house I have become quite fond of and am obsessed with the backyard {really, it's amazing}, making the biggest purchase of our lives!, preparing for our 3rd child {a girl!!!}, changing doctors again, Alan changing jobs, packing, then storing our stuff, then moving and unpacking. I think that is it...? SEE! This is what goes through my mind and then my anxiety starts to build but the the Holy Spirit reminds me of these verses. Do not be anxious about anything, but in EVERY situation, pray and petition God and He alone will send peace that is beyond what I can even begin to understand. That stuff is not worth focusing on. Think about things that are true, right, pure, praiseworthy!
Oddly enough I feel that peace right now. Isn't God so good!?
So, you may be wondering why all this. Why are we moving? When we accepted the call into youth ministry at Southwood, Alan had a steady schedule at a full-time job which allowed him to be home by 4:30pm every day, only working 4 days a week, and rarely a Saturday. That allowed for ample family time as well as time to invest in others, i.e. teens. Since last March, his j.o.b. has required more and more of him causing enough stress completely on it's own, but then you add ministry and schooling on top of that and you have one very over-worked man before even adding family to the mix. Alan and I both saw that the demands outside our home were becoming too much. We both began to pray and petition God for direction. Something had to change but we were not exactly sure what or how. Alan applied for other j.o.b.s that would come with a more constant schedule and still allow him to be in 'paid' ministry, no such luck. Okay, more prayer. We explored other options and received a closed door, followed by a closed door, followed by a close door...you get the picture. Then the thought came to moving back to the town we both grew up in and where all of our family lives. We knew that we needed time to restore our relationship and build our family back up and in Fulton we will have support from both families and of course, babysitting! Plus, Fulton is a much smaller, slower paced town. So we continued to pray and we looked at our options there...
And out of no where, bam, an easy transfer to the office supply store which Alan currently works for was available in a near by city. He knows the manager and she practically begged him to come. She was also able to guarantee him a set schedule! And this store would be much slower paced than his current one. Alright, but what about pay? Columbia obviously has a different pay scale than the store in Overland Park. And once again, he received more than enough to cover our monthly expenses. So, okay, now what about some where to live? We knew we would have family kind enough to allow us to stay some where for a short amount of time, but that was not a permanent option for us. A week and a half ago, we took a trip to Fulton expecting to look into renting something only to find that what we would need for our growing family would be way out of what our budget could afford. Sad. What about buying? We looked into it knowing the max amount we could pay for a mortgage payment and that amount gave us just enough house to be more than comfortable. Alright, this is looking good. Spoke to a realtor who was able to show us house after house all weekend on such short notice and we found the one!! I still get overwhelmed at how perfect it is for us at this time in our lives. God had us in mind. Well, we are new to the whole buying a house thing so we had both of our Dads {who both have a construction background and built both houses the currently live in} look at it and it passed their inspections. Made a low offer which was countered by a much higher one, and then made our second offer expecting to have to go up more in order for the seller to accept. To our complete shock, our realtor called us on Saturday and told us the seller accepted!!! Our realtor said she about fell out of her chair when she got the news. She thought the list price was more than a fair purchase price for this house compared to similar ones sold in the last year. God is SO good!! Tomorrow is the inspection and if all goes well with that and the appraisal we close on July 13th.
During the time when we were contemplating moving to Fulton, I kept asking God, 'If this is not your will for us, please, close doors. We want to follow your will!' But time and time again, the doors kept opening and we kept moving through them. I have no doubt that we are going where God is taking us and although it is so very hard at time, I know the reward is great. God has a plan and I am willing to follow!
I selfishly ask that if our family comes to mind that you would lift us up in prayer during all this change. We want His will to be done!
Thursday, June 9, 2011
what was i thinking?
This post will not be very long because I have so much to do before tomorrow. Alan and I have talked about having a garage sale for a while and finally decided this weekend would work out great. I have been sorting through our stuff for weeks now but I would take my time and was not motivated to get much done. I am great at procrastinating and leave most of the work for the last few days. {not a good idea!} Combine that with a 4 year old, 2 year old, and pregnancy, it makes for a challenging time. And on top of all that, I am beginning to feel pains in my hips and back just like I did when pregnant with Taylor. Ugh! Please excuse my constant complaining! Sometimes it helps to be able to put into words the frustration I am feeling. (:
I just need to remember that it is not the end of the world if I don't accomplish everything I intended to for the sale. *Sigh* And it will be worth it in the end. My house already looks less clustered with a lot of items out of it. Maybe next time I will remember not to wait till the day before to do the bulk of the work? I hope so!!
I just need to remember that it is not the end of the world if I don't accomplish everything I intended to for the sale. *Sigh* And it will be worth it in the end. My house already looks less clustered with a lot of items out of it. Maybe next time I will remember not to wait till the day before to do the bulk of the work? I hope so!!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
20 weeks
Yay! I am over half way there! I say over because I will have a scheduled c-section around 39 weeks if baby doesn't decide coming out sooner is a better idea.
Weight gain/loss?: I've gained nothing in the last 4 weeks!
Stretch marks?: No new ones. I have plenty from the other pregnancies.
Maternity clothes?: I can still wear my normal pants and shirts, but I prefer my maternity clothes for sure!
Sleep?: Getting less and less as time goes on and heartburn has been really annoying these last few weeks. Sleeping {which is really lying in bed and napping a few times a night} with an extra pillow or two under my head is not my favorite.
Food cravings?: Oreos - so I am surprised I've gained no weight!
Gender?: We will find out when the little Mr or Miss arrives hopefully in October! The only reason I would like to know ahead of time is so I can have a garage sale and sell all these boy clothes I have acquired if we are expecting a girl, but I have decided to go through them and shrink my stash anyway. I can always shop sales/second hand stores if I am running low. (:
Movement?: As I am typing this there are little kicks and movements going none stop! I love feeling baby move! It helps it seem more real.
What are you looking forward to this week?: Our sonogram is next Thursday! And Alan has Thursday, Friday, Saturday off from the j.o.b.
Notables: I had my first appointment with my new doctor today and what a refreshing difference! Not only was the receptionist happy to see me, but the nurse was very pleasant! I knew the doctor, he did both cesareans for the boys, so I was not nervous to meet him. He was so kind {and funny}, interacted with the boys, let Noah and Taylor help find the baby's heartbeat, and seemed genuinely interested in all of us. I am so pleased I switched practices!
Oh, and no belly pic today. Soon though...I promise!
How far along?: 20 weeks
How big is baby?: Baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now. He's also around 6 1/2 inches long from head to bottom and about 10 inches from head to heel, about the length of a banana.Weight gain/loss?: I've gained nothing in the last 4 weeks!
Stretch marks?: No new ones. I have plenty from the other pregnancies.
Maternity clothes?: I can still wear my normal pants and shirts, but I prefer my maternity clothes for sure!
Sleep?: Getting less and less as time goes on and heartburn has been really annoying these last few weeks. Sleeping {which is really lying in bed and napping a few times a night} with an extra pillow or two under my head is not my favorite.
Food cravings?: Oreos - so I am surprised I've gained no weight!
Gender?: We will find out when the little Mr or Miss arrives hopefully in October! The only reason I would like to know ahead of time is so I can have a garage sale and sell all these boy clothes I have acquired if we are expecting a girl, but I have decided to go through them and shrink my stash anyway. I can always shop sales/second hand stores if I am running low. (:
Movement?: As I am typing this there are little kicks and movements going none stop! I love feeling baby move! It helps it seem more real.
What are you looking forward to this week?: Our sonogram is next Thursday! And Alan has Thursday, Friday, Saturday off from the j.o.b.
Notables: I had my first appointment with my new doctor today and what a refreshing difference! Not only was the receptionist happy to see me, but the nurse was very pleasant! I knew the doctor, he did both cesareans for the boys, so I was not nervous to meet him. He was so kind {and funny}, interacted with the boys, let Noah and Taylor help find the baby's heartbeat, and seemed genuinely interested in all of us. I am so pleased I switched practices!
Oh, and no belly pic today. Soon though...I promise!
Saturday, May 14, 2011
summer...i mean, spring time fun!
Mr. Taylor playing on a beautiful spring day.
{Can you see his crazy bed hair?}
Not quite sure what the boys are doing here.
They always find new ways to play.
This is my nephew, Elyas, whom I adore! Taylor was so excited to hold the baby while we visited my family last weekend. I think Mr. T is going to be a wonderful big brother!
This day felt like summer for sure! I believe it reached 90F outside so it was perfect for the little pool...
...and the water guns! Noah was kind enough to share some of the water from his water gun with my shirt. Don't worry...Mommy got him back!
Of course it was most fun to squirt each other.
I like this picture. Taylor splashing Noah and Noah squirting Taylor...brothers.
The next day was another hot summer-like day. We spent the morning building things with wood...
...and the afternoon playing in the pool and sprinkler.
I adore this picture!! This will be hanging on my wall some where. They are just too cute!
When Daddy got home we grilled hotdogs and corn on the cob {best way to have corn!}.
We also had salad, baked beans, fresh fruit, and pasta salad...so good and we were so full!
{Isn't he cute!?}
Less than a dollar for this all day entertainment.
This is a little blurry, but I love how much they love each other! Makes my heart sing with joy. We were outside from 4ish to 8pm that day. It was beautiful!
What a perfect couple of days. I love the sun shine and I love the warm weather! Sadly, today the high is in the 50's but that makes me appreciate the sunshine even more.
I can't wait to make more summer or spring memories!
Side note:photos are compliments of my phone. I am never very good at grabbing our actual camera, but I must say, they didn't turn out half bad!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
nearly 17 weeks
Sorry, no belly pictures yet. I just cannot get myself to take them and share them with the world. Because honestly, I feel huge for not very far along. I just tell myself this is baby #3 and my stomach muscles are just really stretched out. To hear that I lost a pound helps to know that I am eating well and not going crazy 'eating for two.' So, maybe if you beg, I will post a belly pic soon.
How far along?: 16 weeks 6 days
How big is baby?: Baby weighs 5 ounces now (about as much as a turnip), and is around 5 inches long from head to bottom.Weight gain/loss?: So far this pregnancy I have lost 1 lb. But don't worry, with the weight I started at this is no harm to baby.
Stretch marks?: No new ones. I have plenty from the other pregnancies.
Maternity clothes?: I can still wear my normal pants and shirts, but I prefer my maternity clothes for sure!
Sleep?: Getting less and less as time goes on but I am thankful for that my boys let me sleep in till at least 7am.
Food cravings?: Lettuce and hard boiled eggs. I cannot get enough salads with cheese, egg, sun flower seeds, and ranch dressing. Yum!!
Gender?: Don't know yet and I am not sure if we will find out or not. So torn this time! What do you all think we should do?
Movement?: Definitely feeling this little one jumping around. I love that feeling!
What are you looking forward to this week?: It is Mother's Day on Sunday!
Notables: I think I have eaten at least 12 hard boiled eggs in the past few days. And one day I had 2 with a cup of coffee. My stomach was happy after that.
Also, last week I had my dr appointment and everything seems to be going fine. Only issue was...my doctor. This week he talked about the test that I could take to find out if our baby may have certain disabilities or disorders. I had heard about all this before but was never interested in taking them. For Alan and I, the outcome will not matter and we will love this baby either way. I understand the benefit from knowing ahead of time and being able to prepare yourself before baby arrives but with the increased risk of miscarriage it is just not worth it to us.
After he {the dr} finished explaining the tests, never asking if that would be something we would even consider doing, he proceeded to tell us that if the results came back that our baby had a disability we had an options to end the pregnancy. I check out as soon as he said that, trying to not cry but I know my face turned bright red. I was thinking, did you seriously just mention abortion to me? With my two boys in the room?! And the reason that it would be an option is because to you our child wouldn't be 'normal'?!! To say that his comments rubbed me the wrong way is an understatement. I was furious and very uncomfortable.
After talking Alan, friends, and my Mom, I decided switching doctors was a must. I am so relieve to say that we will be going to the OB who performed the caesarians that delivered both of my boys in Olathe. *Sigh* Familiarity is comforting. I did not have my prenatal care with him but I know he is a Christian and every interaction I have had with him I felt very comfortable. Sure, I won't have the convenience of the hospital and doctor's office being 10 minutes away {it is about 30 minutes} but I will for sure have peace of mind, which for this pregnant lady is a necessity! I am so thankful that my hubby was supportive of this change in every way. He is willing to drive farther to go with me to my appointments and that makes my heart smile.
Oh, and because I forgot to post this 3 weeks ago, here is our little person at 14 weeks:
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Monday, May 2, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
vent
Here we go again. Another time that we have to 'reevaluate' my husband's availability for his 40 hour a week job. This time it isn't due to corporate cut backs, new policy, or a new manager. It is because one individual is complaining about the lack of evenings that Alan works. And not complaining to Alan, but to the store manager, the district manager, and HR. I'd really like to have a talk with this guy and inform him of what Alan's schedule really looks like...a meeting on Mondays after his j.o.b., class all evening on Tuesdays, church on Wednesday, j.o.b. Thursday evenings, and usually work on Saturdays. Oh yes, and of course Sundays {you know, the only day a pastor actually works, ha!}. Insert family time in there, plus working on papers due nearly every week in class, preparations for sermons/worship, and you have one busy man. I'd really love to know this person's opinion about when he believes my husband should work more evenings.
I am so thankful for how hard Alan works to provide for us and allow me to be home with our boys. This man I love makes sure to take time for his family and genuinely show us his love. I don't want him to feel this pressure that is coming from a job he really doesn't enjoy. It is hard as his wife to sit by and not be able to defend him. Not that he needs me to defend him, it's more like you desperately want to fight for someone you love. But I know the most powerful thing I can do for him is pray.
In all this, I am not worried about our future or if Alan will have to quite because he simply cannot give more time in the evenings. I know God is SO much bigger than this and He has a plan. I rest in that completely. God has been faithful time and time again to show us that He is in control and He will provide for us. If you have been close to us these past 3 years or so, you know this is not the first time Alan's job has been on rocky ground. I am thankful for that history to remind me that no matter what God is there and I CAN and will trust Him.
*Sigh* Glad to get that of my chest. As I write this I am reminded again that it doesn't matter if Mr. Complainer knows anything about our situation because someone must bigger and greater does and He is the one I want to rely on for my needs.
I am so thankful for how hard Alan works to provide for us and allow me to be home with our boys. This man I love makes sure to take time for his family and genuinely show us his love. I don't want him to feel this pressure that is coming from a job he really doesn't enjoy. It is hard as his wife to sit by and not be able to defend him. Not that he needs me to defend him, it's more like you desperately want to fight for someone you love. But I know the most powerful thing I can do for him is pray.
In all this, I am not worried about our future or if Alan will have to quite because he simply cannot give more time in the evenings. I know God is SO much bigger than this and He has a plan. I rest in that completely. God has been faithful time and time again to show us that He is in control and He will provide for us. If you have been close to us these past 3 years or so, you know this is not the first time Alan's job has been on rocky ground. I am thankful for that history to remind me that no matter what God is there and I CAN and will trust Him.
*Sigh* Glad to get that of my chest. As I write this I am reminded again that it doesn't matter if Mr. Complainer knows anything about our situation because someone must bigger and greater does and He is the one I want to rely on for my needs.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
Friday, April 22, 2011
thoughts
Just a few thoughts today as I sit here.
*My 15 week little one is about the size of an apple. I love apples! Last week we got a chance to see our little baby and it was wonderful! Noah and Taylor went with us too! The sono tech said she didn't see any boy parts but because it was so early she cautioned against running out to buy pink stuff yet. Can I tell you that I cried?! Happy tears of course.
*Our family vacation at The Great Wolf Lodge has been wonderful. The boys (all 3) loved the water park and I am so thankful for how relaxing our time here has been. I am also thankful for each second I got to spend with Alan. Family vacations will happen every year for sure now!
*Watching Noah's face as we pulled into the parking lot at the lodge was priceless!! I wish I had thought to record it. We only told him in March that at some point we would be coming here but didn't tell him when. We picked up Daddy from work on Wednesday and drove straight here. As we drove near, Noah said, "Some day we will go there on vacation!" And boy was he shocked when some day became that day!
*I love spring! The warm weather and green every where warms my heart!
*Today is Good Friday and I found myself thinking about Jesus' sacrifice as I woke up. Wow! That is all I can say about that. It's hard to put into words what today, and this weekend, mean to me.
*I have the best in-laws in the WORLD! I loved spending time with them last weekend. And I miss my sis-in-law.
*This last week has been such a blessing. Yes, the whole week and a few days. I had felt so blah and lonely. Our schedule had been so packed with doing this and doing that; it seemed there was no time for sitting and relaxing as a family, all together. Thank you Lord for the chance to slow down and spend time together. What wonderful memories!
*And last, it is 9:30am and my baby is still asleep!! It is our last day at Great Wolf and I think Taylor is plum worn out! He looks so cute sleeping in the bottom bunk. I promise to post pictures soon! (: Daddy and Noah are spending the last hour or so at the water park. {This quiet time is great!}
Happy Easter, everyone!
*My 15 week little one is about the size of an apple. I love apples! Last week we got a chance to see our little baby and it was wonderful! Noah and Taylor went with us too! The sono tech said she didn't see any boy parts but because it was so early she cautioned against running out to buy pink stuff yet. Can I tell you that I cried?! Happy tears of course.
*Our family vacation at The Great Wolf Lodge has been wonderful. The boys (all 3) loved the water park and I am so thankful for how relaxing our time here has been. I am also thankful for each second I got to spend with Alan. Family vacations will happen every year for sure now!
*Watching Noah's face as we pulled into the parking lot at the lodge was priceless!! I wish I had thought to record it. We only told him in March that at some point we would be coming here but didn't tell him when. We picked up Daddy from work on Wednesday and drove straight here. As we drove near, Noah said, "Some day we will go there on vacation!" And boy was he shocked when some day became that day!
*I love spring! The warm weather and green every where warms my heart!
*Today is Good Friday and I found myself thinking about Jesus' sacrifice as I woke up. Wow! That is all I can say about that. It's hard to put into words what today, and this weekend, mean to me.
*I have the best in-laws in the WORLD! I loved spending time with them last weekend. And I miss my sis-in-law.
*This last week has been such a blessing. Yes, the whole week and a few days. I had felt so blah and lonely. Our schedule had been so packed with doing this and doing that; it seemed there was no time for sitting and relaxing as a family, all together. Thank you Lord for the chance to slow down and spend time together. What wonderful memories!
*And last, it is 9:30am and my baby is still asleep!! It is our last day at Great Wolf and I think Taylor is plum worn out! He looks so cute sleeping in the bottom bunk. I promise to post pictures soon! (: Daddy and Noah are spending the last hour or so at the water park. {This quiet time is great!}
Happy Easter, everyone!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
hello again.
Well, I have been MIA from the blog world for a while. So, let me start back in January and I'll explain. I was expecting that certain monthly gift and each day that went by it still failed to show up. Four tests later and now 8 days late still nothing. I wasn't sure what to think. Honestly, I was getting excited. Alan and I had not talked about having another baby but this would have been a great surprise! On the 9th day it came and I was crushed. I got my hopes us and a flood of emotions hit me. It felt so similar to the miscarriage I had in March of 2008 (although I was not able to confirm that I was pregnant this time like in '08). I know most women can relate to the feeling of wanting that so bad and then being let down when it doesn't happen. I spent some time crying, asking God why, and wondering what had happened. Each day I continued to pray, God let your will be done and I will trust you. Every day I gave my worries and burdens back to the One who could carry them because I was (and still am) very good and taking those worries and burdens back.
Alan was so compassionate during those weeks that I was a mess. I cannot wrap my head around how blessed I am to have him as my best friend. He knew that he couldn't understand how I felt but he understood it was a big deal to me and he was going to be there for me. To say I am thankful for him would be a great understatement. One night, while I was lying there with tears rolling down my face, he said, "Maybe we can start trying now." (Can I tell you that made me melt and bawl all at the same time!?) I love him! And really, that helped me a lot.
God continues to amaze me with his perfect timing and His will is always best. Saturday, February 5th, I opened up to our small group about my struggle and why I was struggling. I told them about the let down at the beginning of January and how I felt stuck, wondering where God was. Have you ever felt that way? Like you were in a pit just waiting for help that seemed to never come?
I mentioned the date that I shared with my small group because that following Monday, February 7th, I took a test and this time I saw two pink lines!!! I was seriously jumping up and down in the bathroom! I was so excited I couldn't wait till Alan got home to tell someone so I told Noah, our 4 year old. He was almost as excited as I was. It was a good day. This would be the first pregnancy we actually 'planned'.
My husband is not the type that shows excitement in a big way so, in true Alan fashion, he smiled and said, "Alright" with a little laugh when he saw the test laying in the bathroom. (No, I'm wasn't very creative. I was too excited!) His reaction made me smile. Have I said I love him? Cause I do!
Well, there it is. That is the reason I have not been blogging. Feeling sick and tired have taken up most of my time. Oh, and chasing my growing boys around every where. More to come! (Almost forgot! Little Mr. or Miss should be here mid-October!)
Alan was so compassionate during those weeks that I was a mess. I cannot wrap my head around how blessed I am to have him as my best friend. He knew that he couldn't understand how I felt but he understood it was a big deal to me and he was going to be there for me. To say I am thankful for him would be a great understatement. One night, while I was lying there with tears rolling down my face, he said, "Maybe we can start trying now." (Can I tell you that made me melt and bawl all at the same time!?) I love him! And really, that helped me a lot.
God continues to amaze me with his perfect timing and His will is always best. Saturday, February 5th, I opened up to our small group about my struggle and why I was struggling. I told them about the let down at the beginning of January and how I felt stuck, wondering where God was. Have you ever felt that way? Like you were in a pit just waiting for help that seemed to never come?
I mentioned the date that I shared with my small group because that following Monday, February 7th, I took a test and this time I saw two pink lines!!! I was seriously jumping up and down in the bathroom! I was so excited I couldn't wait till Alan got home to tell someone so I told Noah, our 4 year old. He was almost as excited as I was. It was a good day. This would be the first pregnancy we actually 'planned'.
My husband is not the type that shows excitement in a big way so, in true Alan fashion, he smiled and said, "Alright" with a little laugh when he saw the test laying in the bathroom. (No, I'm wasn't very creative. I was too excited!) His reaction made me smile. Have I said I love him? Cause I do!
Well, there it is. That is the reason I have not been blogging. Feeling sick and tired have taken up most of my time. Oh, and chasing my growing boys around every where. More to come! (Almost forgot! Little Mr. or Miss should be here mid-October!)
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
snow babies
On Saturday I finally thought it would be somewhat warm enough outside to let my two little guys go play in the snow! This was Taylor's first in the snow experience and he was very excited. Part of the reason he had not been out yet was because I did not have snow gear that would fit him and I could not get myself to buy something that he may only use once, you know?
So anyway, I dug through the box of winter clothes that were Noah's and found a pair of snow boot that were three sizes too big for T and snow pants that were only one size too big. To complete his outfit, he wore two jackets {one for warmth and the other was waterproof} and two pairs of glove. Can you say over protective mommy? Well, this is the final result:
Noah, of course, was already outside rolling around in the snow. Last year we bought Noah's extra big so he could wear it again this year. {You may think that is silly, but my Dave Ramsey On Steroids Dad would think that is the only way to go!} So he was set and had been outside in the snow many times already this winter season.
Taylor could not wait to get out there and play with Daddy and Doah {this is how T says his name, so cute!}. Here are a few more pictures from the day:
So anyway, I dug through the box of winter clothes that were Noah's and found a pair of snow boot that were three sizes too big for T and snow pants that were only one size too big. To complete his outfit, he wore two jackets {one for warmth and the other was waterproof} and two pairs of glove. Can you say over protective mommy? Well, this is the final result:
Noah, of course, was already outside rolling around in the snow. Last year we bought Noah's extra big so he could wear it again this year. {You may think that is silly, but my Dave Ramsey On Steroids Dad would think that is the only way to go!} So he was set and had been outside in the snow many times already this winter season.
Taylor could not wait to get out there and play with Daddy and Doah {this is how T says his name, so cute!}. Here are a few more pictures from the day:
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| This is what Taylor wanted to do the most...lay in the snow and eat it! |
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| My little snow bug |
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| Noah loves being outside! |
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| Helping Daddy shovel the drive way |
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
what is next?
Well, I am not very good at keeping up with this blog. I love reading my friends blogs and admire how well written and beautiful they always look. I tend to think that is something I could ever do. I mean, my life isn't really that interesting...what in the world do I have to tell the world? {or whomever reads this} So today I thought I would just write about what is on my heart. And my heart is wondering: What is next?
What is next? Honestly, I do not know. God knows, I am sure of that, but He has not felt the need to clue me in yet. And so here I am, waiting. I am not even sure what I am waiting for. Have you ever felt that way? Just waiting? Or am I alone in this feeling? I find myself thinking I am alone, but then I am reminded that He is always there and He has a beautiful plan for my life. This is something I know but I am struggling to believe it.
At this very moment, I feel thankful for this waiting period, for the Bible says, "Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:31 [NKJV]
Wow!!! That is what I want! Renewed strength in and of its self sounds so refreshing and then you add eagles, running, and walking without becoming tired...that is the kind of strength I need. So I will be thankful for this time of waiting. God is faithful...always. And He will renew my strength.
What is next? Honestly, I do not know. God knows, I am sure of that, but He has not felt the need to clue me in yet. And so here I am, waiting. I am not even sure what I am waiting for. Have you ever felt that way? Just waiting? Or am I alone in this feeling? I find myself thinking I am alone, but then I am reminded that He is always there and He has a beautiful plan for my life. This is something I know but I am struggling to believe it.
At this very moment, I feel thankful for this waiting period, for the Bible says, "Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:31 [NKJV]
Wow!!! That is what I want! Renewed strength in and of its self sounds so refreshing and then you add eagles, running, and walking without becoming tired...that is the kind of strength I need. So I will be thankful for this time of waiting. God is faithful...always. And He will renew my strength.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
snow.
I love snow. I always have. Maybe it is because I lived in Alaska until I was nine. Maybe it is because it makes everything look so clean and white. And tonight as the snow continues to fall I am getting ready to settle down and snuggle with my 3 favorite boys to watch a movie and drink hot chocolate. So, what are some of your favorite things to do when it is snowing?
Thursday, January 13, 2011
weekend excitement/sadness
Today my two kiddos and I head back 'home' to visit family and attend my baby sister's baby shower. [still can hardly believe in about a month I will be an aunt!!!] I cannot wait to spend the day with my mom! See, this is not something I have been able to do...ever. I have never taken my boys to see Grandma, at her house, for no other reason than just to visit. Until this summer, my mom had been living in Oregon since shortly after my wedding. I am super excited to make new memories with her!
Then there will be time for Noah to play outside in the snow with Grandpa and a quiet evening in the house I spent 5 years of my life in. I can hear the deep sighs of relaxation now. *sigh* This weekend will also mean a visit to my favorite in-laws and lots of quality time with Grammy and Poppy for Noah and Taylor.
So why the sadness at all? Well, my favorite man in the whole world will not be able to join us. Work and school schedule do not allow for him to make long trips away from our home. Alan works so very hard to provide for us and allow me to stay home with our boys. I am so very thankful for this, but sometime I wish he could work less and be with us more. By no mean is my husband a workaholic. He keeps everything balanced and is a very attentive daddy and husband. Because he is so faithful to follow God's will for his life (and ours) he is a youth pastor and that does not allow many Sundays off throughout the year. [cause we all know pastors only work on Sundays (: ] And trips, two and a half hours away, with two little boys, for just one night, do not equal much fun and then when you add trying to divide time between 3 houses in 24 hours, it just gets too messy. So, the boys and I will be making this trip without him. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?
Alright, time to finish packing and get the car loaded. Can't wait to get there and then I can't wait to get back to my man. Happy Weekend!
Then there will be time for Noah to play outside in the snow with Grandpa and a quiet evening in the house I spent 5 years of my life in. I can hear the deep sighs of relaxation now. *sigh* This weekend will also mean a visit to my favorite in-laws and lots of quality time with Grammy and Poppy for Noah and Taylor.
So why the sadness at all? Well, my favorite man in the whole world will not be able to join us. Work and school schedule do not allow for him to make long trips away from our home. Alan works so very hard to provide for us and allow me to stay home with our boys. I am so very thankful for this, but sometime I wish he could work less and be with us more. By no mean is my husband a workaholic. He keeps everything balanced and is a very attentive daddy and husband. Because he is so faithful to follow God's will for his life (and ours) he is a youth pastor and that does not allow many Sundays off throughout the year. [cause we all know pastors only work on Sundays (: ] And trips, two and a half hours away, with two little boys, for just one night, do not equal much fun and then when you add trying to divide time between 3 houses in 24 hours, it just gets too messy. So, the boys and I will be making this trip without him. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?
Alright, time to finish packing and get the car loaded. Can't wait to get there and then I can't wait to get back to my man. Happy Weekend!
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
getting started.
Well, here it goes. I am entering the blog world. I can't promise that I will keep at this, but here goes nothing. I don't even know what the purpose of this blog will be yet. Will I talk about all the wonderful things my two boys and I do during the day? Or about my ever growing and changing relationship with my Savoir? Or maybe about how much I appreciate my hard working husband? Could I write about all the joys and struggles of being a pastor's wife? I guess only time will tell. So, hurray!! Here it is...my first blog entry.
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